So it’s been awhile.  I have not really wanted to update for a number of reasons, one of them being because I have been comparing myself with other people that have had the surgery and I just don’t see results like they do.  I’m not saying that I’m putting in the amount of work that they are because I’m not and that’s why I am not hitting big numbers. I know this. I am not looking to lie about any of this.  I have had a lot going on and to be honest have been incredibly depressed. When I am depressed, I don’t eat so at least I haven’t gained. 

I had been holding steady with the weight for a good month or two.  No loss but no gain either which made me happy.  Finally in the last couple weeks I started to do what I needed to do again.  Cooking good foods, being outside, gym etc.  It’s hard living by myself. Cooking for one. Coming home and talking to no one…I’m a boredom eater so living alone and coming out of being depressed is not helpful.  I am constantly finding myself in front of the TV with nothing to do but watch the stupid shows I have DVR’d and look for snacks to munch on.  A positive about living by myself though is that I just don’t buy any of the crap that my ex and I used to keep in the house. There are literally NO snacks which is good and bad because if I get the oomph to go to the store to buy some snacks, they aren’t good choice snacks. Most of the time I don’t make it to the store though, I just suck it up and not have a snack. It’s tough though…knowing that people that were in my life and aren’t now, have just… transitioned so well not having me in their life. I constantly wonder if the problem really is me like he keeps telling me…Things and people have changed so much….That’s a whole other issue.  Anyway… Continue reading »